Jennifer Davis

Before I was excommunicated and before I came to the gathering, I struggled to know where the truth really was. I wasn't sure. My husband and I essentially gathered here at different times. My husband came in January, 1998 and I in June, 1998. During this time of separation (5 months), I believed I was doing the right thing by NOT being gathered to Manti, Utah. I had been taught the truth at the same time as my husband Logan, but uncertainty overtook me. I held on to my LDS traditions, it was hard for me to change my way of thinking, which I'd always thought was right and good in the eyes of God. I searched the scriptures to prove that I was right and my husband wrong. It was a frustrating experience but one I must testify of.

I believed that by following the LDS leadership and by gaining the approval of my various bishops and stake presidents that the Lord would bless me and my little family. Well, He didn't. I lost the confidence that comes from the influence of the Holy Ghost because I essentially rejected the truth I had learned. I moved from place to place trying to find happiness and a decent job to support my children. I was trying to find happiness and a decent job to support my children. I was trying to fill a void. I believe that happiness results from peace. Peace results from knowing that God approves of what you are doing. That peace was missing. I struggled from day to day for five long months. I couldn't find decent work, nor could I could I find a home suitable for my children. There were many trials in between but, suffice it to say, my God was patiently teaching me in a way I could understand.

One morning I woke up with the resolve to see Logan. I felt so strongly that I needed to go. I grabbed my divorce papers and figured if I couldn't persuade him to leave with me, I would continue south to Las Vegas and get a drive through divorce. So I loaded up my kids, some food and clothing and off we went. We hadn't seen him in five months.

We got into an accident , where my car's front end crushed into another guy's pickup before we ever left town. We finally got out of town after tying the hood down with a jump rope and replacing a tire. We drove day and night without stopping except for gas. Among other problems, I found I had to tag close behind semi-trucks because my lights were to dim to see far enough to drive . But despite that and other major things, my resolve to get here, even though I didn't quite know why, kept getting stronger and eventually, we made it safe and sound.

A wonderful thing happened once we arrived in Manti. I felt all of my misgivings, anxiety, mistrust just melt away as immediately as we arrived here. A calm peacefulness filled me (incidentally, filling the void I'd been trying to fill for five months) and gave me rest from the trials I had suffered through. My great mistrust of my husband (that is, of his knowledge) was replaced with trust and I allowed him to teach me, finally. I forgot all about trying to prove TLC wrong. From that point on, I discovered so much truth! I was like a sponge, soaking it all in. Choosing what to believe was not an issue, the truth just seemed to speak to my soul and I knew it was true. I didn't have an ounce of doubt in my whole body. Every fiber of my being knew and recognized the truth and I only wanted to know more. I believed it with all of my heart. I knew the Holy Ghost was bearing witness of truth and I knew the same would happen concerning the Lord's Servant, James D. Harmston.

And it did. The Holy Ghost bore witness to me that He is indeed the Lord's Servant on earth at this time, He has been divinely appointed to lead and direct the Father's elect at this time. Every time I am in the same room when Jim is teaching, I receive the witness of heaven that he is indeed who he says he is and that what he is teaching is most certainly true. I testify to you that I never had the witness of heaven telling me Gordon B. Hinckley was a true prophet. I have been full of emotion at times and at times, I have been filled with the Spirit of God and I tell you, they are two different things. That is something I didn't know before I came here.

I can and do testify that Jesus is the Christ, that He lives! I have felt the indescribable joy and love that emanates from Him. I know that any man who has been in the presence of the Savior, would declare repentance and baptism to all that would hear him, for the sole purpose of bringing those who are willing into the Savior's presence. I know that Jim is a true prophet, by the witness of heaven burned into my soul and because his works prove it. He spends his life seeking to bring others into the presence of the Savior. Anyone who has truly felt the Savior's love would seek to share it with all who will be worthy to receive it. Jim speaks, teaches, exhorts, and lives his life as one having authority. This truth has been burned into my soul over and over again. I testify to you that Gordon B. Hinckley is leading the LDS church with all of its members in a false hope of Christ. Those LDS members cannot come into the presence of the Savior in this lifetime while they continue to follow a false prophet. GBH does not teach how to come into the presence of the Savior, which requires obedience to ALL the ordinances of the House of the Lord. I know that the fullness of the gospel as restored through Joseph Smith is true with every fiber of my being. I know that the fullness of the gospel is not taught in the LDS church. I know that the ordinances offered in LDS temples have been changed despite Joseph Smith's warning to keep them the same as they ever have been. I know that Joseph Smith taught his people to receive their calling and election ordinances and that these ordinances were to be ratified by the Savior. That can no longer be accomplished in the LDS Church. I know that those who diligently study LDS Church history will find the essentials of the gospel that have been lost. And a diligent study will bring you here, if you desire truth. The truth is here and the Spirit of God will back it up.

I have received a true endowment and I pray in the True Order. I testify to you that I feel the spirit daily, and I have my questions answered daily. I can commune with my Father Adam beyond the veil. Because of this, I know where I stand before God. What a joy it is to be able to ask Father if He is pleased with my efforts and progress. How humbling it is when the answer comes back to repent at times. And other times, yes, I am pleased with you. It is enough to make me sing praises to my God and King! I truly know His will for me and if I am unsure at times, I simply ask. And He simply answers me.

I have a strong testimony concerning plural marriage. I know this principle is part of the plan. It used to frighten me, and during times of selfishness, still does. But I sought for the revelation of Heaven concerning this eternal principle, and it was poured out abundantly on my soul. Our purpose here is to become like God and get rid of the flaws that plague our eternal character. God showed to me how plural marriage purifies, teaches, and refines all those involved. I obtained the promise that my Father in Heaven will uplift and uphold me when I enter into this principle as my husband marries other women. I know that I will (as I remain close to my Father Adam and his Son, my Savior) come to love these other women as sisters, that we will become united in purpose. That together we will put off our selfish desires and seek more fully to do the work of the Father. What a blessing it is to know that my Father in Heaven and my Savior will indeed help me through the trying experiences that are certain to come.

The Lord requires a willing heart and an obedient soul. I hope that those who read this will find that these are qualities they possess, as also a strong desire for truth. This work is true. The Spirit of God is here and He holds this people in the palm of His hand. Protection from the calamities that are soon to befall this nation is to be found here, among God's people. If you want to know the truth, seek it with all of your heart, and you will find it here.

Jennifer Davis